Breakdown

Today I had a major breakdown. It was bad. I actually began to cry. I just could not and at this point still can't understand why my wife and I have to live a life with a limited amount of happiness. Our lives at this point stinks. We rarely ever see each other, we have no money, and each of us are just plain tired all of the time.

So with all of that being said, it is my hope that today I actually hit the bottom. During my breakdown I realized that there is absolutely no way that anyone is going to hand me a great future. I have to go out and seize it myself. I will no longer hold myself back because I am too scared, tired, or just plain lazy. If there is something I want I am going to set out and capture it myself. The only way I am going to be truely happy is reaching my goals. My number one goal right now is quit my current job and to make my own schedule. So, within the perameters I set for myself I will have my own clients and making my own schedule July 1st, 2009. As for a shorter term goal I will have my first customer by January 15th, 2009. I will be going on sales calls with my wifes father next week. This will be the starting point for my future.

Today marks the first day of my new life. Every time a little bit of laziness starts to come over me I will think back to today and remember how crappy I felt on this day. From this day foward I am a new person "a new me."